This is seriously something out of a nightmare. Not only did I have a fucking shitty experience, I lost the only person I care about. My face is swollen from crying and my mind is reeling. I can’t even describe this feeling. Its the scariest thing in the world. What worries me more is the future and the longrun. I may have fucked this one up for good. I refuse to ever put myself in a situation like that again. I will no longer trust anyone.
